Friday, May 24, 2013

Getting To Know Me.......

I don't really 'buy' all this sharing of ourselves 
and putting our life 'out there' for all to read and see,
but I guess if I was being honest, which I have always 
tried to be, I can see that it may matter to some
in getting a better 'picture' of who this Jim Cuvelier
character really is.

So here is another episode of my story that I feel
helped me to appreciate and value the life I have.

Let's go back to around 1958 when I was 9 years old
going on 10. 

We lived on a corner property in Halifax which had 
sidewalks going around two sides of it, 
guess that would make sense mathematically,lol!

You will probably think what a strange kid I was when I tell
about this incident, and you would be right to do so.
I suppose I could have been considered a little weird.
But this 'time' impacted me for the rest of my life 
and how I looked at things from then on.

Remember I was just 9 years old.....

A number of kids used to use 'our sidewalk' all the time
to get from A to B. That was OK. But I had noticed that
some of them would make it their mission to step on and kill
any insect (ants mostly) that they may see along the way.

I thought that this was wrong of them. They should leave 'my ants' alone.

I told them. They did not listen. So I blockaded the sidewalk!
Yes I did!

I know! All kids kill insects like plucking off the legs of a dandy-long-legs,
 and some continue to do this today, I assume.
But you see, I couldn't.

I have no clue why I felt so strongly about this at such a young age.
My older sisters and younger brothers had no problem with 
killing insects whether accidentally or not.

Back to the blockade! OK. A friend of mine at the time
came walking down the sidewalk and came up to this 
obstruction I had built.

He asked me what it was and why I wouldn't let him pass.
I told him unless he promised to not kill any ants, 
he could not walk down this part of the sidewalk.

He looked strangely at me and jumped over it
and proceeded to kill every ant he could find.

I became very confused and couldn't understand
why anyone would or could do such a thing.

I think I even got physical with him and pushed him off 
'my sidewalk'!

I can't really remember how long I kept my blockade
to protect the insects, but I remember my vigilance and the impact
that this had on me at that age.

I had a difficult time understanding that some people
think differently about things than I do, 
even when it has to do with 'life and death' situations.

I don't know what brought me to be such a serious kid.
I really don't. All I know is that I felt that I had to protect those ants.
And I really did see their value and their purpose in living.
It was their life just like mine was mine to live.

I just dawned on me that maybe another incident may have
been the factor in making me take things so seriously most of my life.

But that is a story for another day.

Oh yes, to this day I continue to value the lives of all sentient beings.
But I have left those 'blockade days' behind me.

All images were taken from the internet for this post.


  1. this was a touching story Jim, and I always felt the same-but never went as far as you did to protect your beliefs.
    when we first moved down here to Missouri, we had met someone that we had let hunt here-that was until one day he decided birds were target practice-told him no-that is what paper targets are for-he continued-that was it for him-no longer aloud here-so I guess I got better as I aged-lol

    1. LOL! Yes you did! good fore you Kathy! I can understand hunting to some degree but senseless killing of anything is not good.

  2. Clearly you were a budding little Buddhist even then! And, for a child, endowed with unusual empathy -- but what a wonderful trait for a human being!

    1. LOL! A 'BLB'!!! Oh NO!!! Kidding....once I became aware that Buddhists even existed, Debra, I was attracted like a magnet. And for an entire sect to move here to Halifax back in the 80's, well, that did it for me! I have internalized a lot of their teachings and even learned to their way to meditate from them.
      Buddhist philosophy is a very good 'fit' for me and I will continue to learn from this 'way of living'. A lot of non-Buddhist people like myself have attended workshops and the like at Shambhala in Halifax.

  3. Hi Jim, although I find that you were serious at such a young age, I do not think you were strange at all...but a very caring young boy! You still are today, and I see this only as a wonderful thing.

    1. Hi Linda. I was always noted, and still am, for my serious frown across my forehead.....I have ridges to prove it!! lol
      Difference is good in this world of ours.

    2. Hi Jim, indeed it is! God made us differently; this way we are never bored and learn to get along with one another. :)

  4. Great story, Jim! My grandson, who just turned 7, feels the same way. He protects all "God's creatures," as he calls them. If more people felt this way, surely the world would be a better place to live.

    1. Yeah! There two of us!! I am sure there are more of 'us' around and you are very fortunate to have such a caring grandson.....must be in the genes, Liz.

  5. I don't think you were a strange child: I think you were an advanced child.


    1. Well then! Why didn't someone tell me this years ago? lol!
      I know what you are saying Janie. Thanks.

  6. We have fire ants here, I try to stay clear of them and we have had to resort to "measures" because DH and Jack are very allergic to their bites. They seem to have taken over our whole property. We would re-home them if we could, they just won't move.

    1. LOL! We had carpenter ants here once which started to eat our shed....we took the same 'measures'. No need for a blockade this time!!

  7. well Jim, funny you should pick ants. NEMESIS..NemeSES? Whatever. I freaking hate those guys. Ever since they marched through my house a million times like they owned it, and that time flying ants poured up into my bed room from the cold air return vent...oh dear god, let us not speak of ants. I admire YOU though.

    1. I do know and have experienced this as well and you will be happy, Karen, to hear that I too have to 'take measures' in which to solve the problem.
      The critters I may have a problem with would be snakes.....I haven't seen enough of or been around these guys enough to appreciate them in any way shape or form. Yikes!!

  8. Jim, that sounds! Keith Wynn's Thought of the Day a few days ago was "Each and every animal on earth has as much right to be here as you and me" from Anthony Douglas Williams. That's exactly how I feel about animal life.

    1. And I so agree with that quote. I don't find any difference in 'value' between any living thing.....we are all here doing what we are doing.
      Have a great weekend Terry.

  9. I think that's wonderful, Jim. Respecting all living creatures, and being empathetic with each one is something to be very proud of. It's astounding that you were like that from such a young age. I've always been very sensitive to life, and I'm getting worse (better?) over time. I am at a point in my life where I safely transport bugs outside. I can't kill them. Sometimes I just can't believe I'm doing this!

    1. I think we come to a realization, at least I did, that living on this planet is a privilege and we each have our part to do.
      I am constantly transporting critters around and out of the house....they can't do their 'thing' inside, right?

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    1. That should do it!! Thanks PAt!

  11. Just showing a heart of kindness, and the ability to see all beings as having value! Loved your story


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